hello world

last monday evening, i came across a substack article titled, the intimacy of never talking again by missionarymai. of course, it wasn’t my first time ever browsing substack, i had been introduced to the platform via the bliss bean’s youtube channel years ago, but i never connected with the platform at the time. however, over the last few years it has grown into such a beautiful place for people to express their ideas and be truly honest about what they feel about life, love, and the world.

reading this article lit up a part of my brain that had been laying dormant. it made me feel inspired to write again. i started consuming post after post, feeling amazed at the honesty and vulnerability displayed by the authors. unlike most prose we consume in 2025, a distinct lack of ai was present, i felt like i was reading people’s thoughts from the heart which was so refreshing.

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i was also consuming more than just mindless 30 second videos that provide no context for an unfiltered thought or opinion, something i’ve grown increasingly frustrated with over the past few months but keep eating up like any other tiktok addict.

while reading these 5-10 minute long articles, i felt my heart opening, my mind expanding, and most of all, i felt connected to other people’s hearts and individual expression from their soul. although i have just recently explored substack, all the people sharing on this platform i have come across so far are beautiful wordsmiths that make my own words seem juvenile in comparison – which in truth, they are. but as i continue to reignite my love for writing and sharing i hope to develop my vocabulary and be able to write with a poet’s voice, rather than so practically.

how i got past my year’s long writer’s block

i have had so many different social media platforms over the years – from fanforums through to livejournal, tumblr, personal blog websites, small businesses… i’ve tried everything. at my writing peak i was posting on my wordpress blog site several times a week, capturing life, thoughts, and opinions. over time as i grew into my thirties, most of my energy went into my corporate work so i didn’t have as much time or energy to write.

after watching anna howard’s video titled creating a digital garden to end my doomscrolling, i felt incredibly inspired to start my own obsidian vault in order to begin taking notes on what i was consuming, and attempting to glean some sort of meaning from it all. almost all day every day i am watching, reading or listening to something. usually the messages are easily recognised then quickly discarded, but i wanted to dive deeper, to not let meaning pass me by any longer.

like most of us in 2025, my attention span is as short as a goldfish’s memory and once i understand the gist of the content, i’m ready to move onto the next little nugget of new information that pops up. i want to know everything, but i retain nothing. inevitably, it results in a distinct lack of personal growth and diminishing intelligence. i am looking forward to changing this as i move forward into my mid-30s.

i feel inspired to look deeper into concepts, messages, and meaning that i can recognise and gain wisdom from. my love for writing, is reignited. sharing my thoughts, feelings and opinions feels like something i need to do once again, even if they contradict society’s currently accepted stance.

even if just one person reads this article, i am grateful. but it’s ok if no one ever finds this, because writing has once again become just a passion project for myself.

in creating this substack i hope to reconnect with my writer’s heart. i can promise you that there will be no use of artificial intelligence in my writing, and that i will only write from the heart using my own words. nothing i post here will be perfect, but it will be authentically me.

sidenote – my internal dialogue has always felt like a 16 year old girl. she definitely is rocking an emo side fringe, and a petulant attitude. of course, when i was 16 back in 2008, that was on trend, but the fact she is eternally with me is a mildly concerning.

signing off

this is where i leave you for now. in the wise words of the saddle club theme song:

Hello world, this is me
Life should be fun for everyone
Life is easy if you wear a smile
Just be yourself, don’t ever change your style
You are you, I am me, we’ll be free

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